Well, I'm back and ready to get you started on a successful weight loss journey!!

The last time I posted, I was going over some pretty depressing things about my past and it really started to affect me emotionally and mentally so I had to take a break.  Just a note to let you know that I will be posting a list of eating plans on here that are EXCELLENT ways to jump start your metabolism and get healthy and lose weight!!  Also, I have information about cardio and weight training that will help you no matter your physical condition!!  ALL levels can do the things I am going to post.  Tomorrow I will begin to post.  Keep up with me and you can start looking and feeling better soon!!  Sorry it took so long!  See you tomorrow!

Time flies by even when your not having fun, but having fun???

I have to say when I look back into my past, as much as I can remember of it, I see happy and sad times as we all do.  My best times were when my kids were all young and silly.  My four oldest children are 16, 15, 13 and 11 years old.  When they were 7 years old and under, we had wonderful times together.  Just the 5 of us.  There were relationship issues with my now x husband going on that prohibited "family time" in it's traditional sense.  The children and I would attend church together and go to Chuck E. Cheese together.  The park was always great!  They kept me sane and happy and kept my focus off the hurtful things in my life.  There was a sense of depression that was inside of me due to the self esteem issues that arose out of being emotionally and mentally and even sometimes physically abused.  A normal day in our house when the kids were all under school age would be, my husband would get up quietly for work and never wake any of us up and he would just leave.  So, when I did wake up, I would tend to the kids, clean up the house and take care of things, and then by the end of the day when I knew he was coming home, we would leave to visit family or go to a fun place or the park before he arrived.  I was running from the pain.  We would return within a few hours just before bedtime and do it all over again the next day.  The reason for my running was the abuse, but he never did anything in front of the kids. I was still protecting them because I couldn't trust him.  Now how this has to do with weight loss, I will tell you.  During all the years, I suffered through many different forms of verbal and emotional abuse that kept my self esteem down to where I had come to terms with the "fact" that I was worthless, and I was fine with it.  That's really bad.  I thank God in Heaven for those sweet babies that kept me happy and sane through some of the most humiliating and hurtful things in my life.  However, there was another form of "comfort" that I was drawn to and that was food.  I remember times when I would order a large pizza at our favorite place.  The large ones had about 12 slices I think??  The kids would each have one, and I would nearly finish the rest of it.  Obviously this is not healthy and caused severe weight gain, along with the sweet tooth I had.  Thinking of these memories is making me a little upset, so I am going to take a break and come back in a couple days or so.  Have a blessed day!

Well, It all started when....

As a teenager I was always in great shape.  I don't know how I did it, now that I look back.  I ate fast food and everything, but I guess it was because I was SO active.  I rode my bike everyday after school and then ofcourse on the weekends.  I went ice skating in the winter with friends and held a job full time in the summer.  I know that when I graduated, I was in a serious relationship that was marriage bound.  When I was 19 I remember giving my (now X husband) a hug goodbye and he had placed his hands on my sides at my rib cage and I guess he noticed that there was a little bit of extra weight there.  I will never forget what he said to me.  He said, "Wow, after we get married, you're not going to blimp out on me are you?".  I was SO embarrassed.  In that last year after graduation I had started a management job at Mrs. Field's Cookies and had started to gain some weight from all the snacking I was doing at the store.  I sometimes would skip lunch and just eat a brownie or some cookies fresh out of the oven, and ofcourse I would be sipping pop all day.  I remember one week I worked 73 hours.  I would do my paper work and fall asleep on the desk until the next morning, then do it all over again.  I loved my  job, but the sweets and the lack of discipline really took its toll on me.  I know that is where my problem started, but it wasn't the only thing that kept it going.  I will post more tomorrow or the next day when I get a chance... more about my life and how depression had a lot to do with retaining and even gaining more weight.  Thanks for reading! Bye for now!

Having a hard time staying motivated to lose weight?

I can TOTALLY relate! I have been up and down the weight loss roller coaster until it made me sick.  Sick and tired of trying and failing. There are so many different ways to approach weight loss and not every thing works for every person. Throughout all the various diet plans, detox plans, exercise regimens, liquid and pill "miracles" and killing myself on exercise machines, I have finally stopped the searching and have come up with something that works for me! What I have to offer you may or may not help, but I am pleased to say MY search is over and this is a plan I can stick with the rest of my life!  
Having come to this point, I have tremendous peace and actually sleep better than I have in YEARS.  Just knowing that I don't have to worry about weight loss anymore, and I can pretty much eat anything I want. Makes me feel like a teenager again! I am serious! It's a simple day by day journey now! 
In my future posts, I will explain some things about how I gained my weight in the first place at the age of 20 years old, how it got worse, then better, then worse and finally I will bring you up to speed on how things are now.  I am not at my goal weight yet, but I am half way there and cruising to the finish line with some speed now!  If you are interested, just follow along, and if not I truly wish you luck in your weight loss journey!  I know how hard it can be.  May you reach you destination with as much ease as possible! God Bless YOU!!